Finally get promoted to CPL le, but serious speaking I am not happy of getting the promotion to CPL because this rank is a ticket to hell and more suffering!

On the first day of our promotion which is also our cross over day and we will like being treated like dog for the first day in the camp! Seriously I really feel very tired after the whole thing, the push up and all the physical training that they make us do.

Next is the everything in everything out, lucky only once else I think I will be super sianz sia! Anyway this is all the bad things la, there is also good thing, I passed my BAC selection which means I am going for the next BAC! I cant wait for the course to start meh, the smell of the air, and the feeling of being able to jump down for a aircraft! Is really get me exciting man!

Now back to personal, this week is really a lot for me to went through, I really cant take it anymore le, just wish that I have someone there to support me all the way.

"I Love You"

Living for yourself, your family, and your friends or for God? Feeling kind of confuses and stuff, wondering what is my real life or what is God plan for me? Haiz…

Feeling tired and stress…just hope someone will be there for me ba and really know me…

Bye bye to Friday le…=(

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was smsin with melissa tan...and suddenly talk abt this fren that hav left us few years back? kind of miss him now, we were just abt getting closer to each other and he left mi le...well, nt sure of how is he now or what is he doin now, but just know tat I kind of miss him...

actually thinking back I do lose many fren as I grow older...i miss all of them, wonder if they still rmb mi anot? haiz...i wish I could replace him, so that I won't hav to miss him...

but also thanks God ba? I hav so many encounter to near death accident and ya...wonder when is the next time I gg to lost someone that is close to my heart or I will leave first??

God, bring mi home!

"I Love You"

as you can see, the title of this update is who am I to you?

it also a questions that I have been thinking for the past few days...be it you or any other people, sometime I really feel as if people take me for granted or what, so what am I after being use? kind of tired thinking this kind of things but somehow it really keep on appearing in my mind...

sometime I wish the someone special could be there for me company mi chat or what but again this kind of things can never happen to me I guess?

sometimes I ask God, ask Him to give me someone that I can really talk to and be there for me when I am down and stuff...i know God is there for me always that why whenever I think of this I will tell God, when are You bring me back to the place I belong which is at Your side God!

I do feel sad at times but hu is there for me? the one I wish to see most of the times is not there...

enough of all the emo things...want to thanks God for speaking or telling mi things through this sister...really want to thanks this sister monkey...and at the same time could like to say a big sorry to Candace as well...lastly thanks You God for Your unlimited forgiveness You given to me and this time for me to really go reflect and stuff...

thanks You God!

"I Love You"

Dear God, happy new year to you! God I want to take this time to write to you to thanks You for everything that You have done for me. Thanks You for sending Your one and only son, Jesus Christ, to die for my sin that have not yet committed. God thanks You for your forgiveness over and over again, no matter how many time I fail You, You still forgive me and accept me as who I am. God really thanks You a lot. If not for Your grace and forgiveness I will not be what I am today.

God I admit that I am not doing very well in the year 2010, somehow I always go against Your will and stuff, but God I pray that in the year 2011 You will change me to the kind of person You want me to be, God I pray that You will make use of the holy spirit to speak into my life, speak to me through Holy Spirit as Holy Spirit represent You God. Let me see the vision that You have set for me in the year 2011 God.

God, I also want to take this chance to say out everything that is inside my heart and mind, as I want to live openly like how Jesus lives His life. God there is many things that I want to tell You, my feeling, my thoughts and everything.

But God, the very first thing I wish to tell you is about my relationship with this particular girl. I not sure if she is the one that mean for me but God I do know that up till now I still in love with her and I really wish to see her hold her everyday but I know I cant, the reason why I want to tell You this is because I want and I need Your help, not to get the girl but tell me what is the plan You have for me, I also pray that You will tell me more about what and if there will be any ending to it. God, next is my family, I pray that my family will come to know and accept You one day so all of them will be save by You as only You we will be save and I want to see all of them in heaven.

God, there is many more things that I want to say, sometime I wish that I could just sit down with You to have a cup of coffee chatting about life and the plan You have plan for me. Really wish to feel more of you. God help me to have a fruitful 2011!

God, last thing, I really treasure her and love her a lot, but I also do not want to go against Your will help me God, tell me more about this God…

"I Love You"