Why do people only learn how to treasure when they are gone? Why do people only start to think of others good when they have already leaved their life? Anyway, currently on mc now, extended till wed hope my wound will recover fast and I can get back to training.

Wanted to talk about sometime in life, have been thinking why does God put me in commando, why God allow something to happen to us. God is really interesting, but again He is really good to all of us, but I fail Him again and again.

Well, MC extended to this Sunday again. Kind of excepted but abit sianz. Sometimes I think that army really makes people stupid. Already inform I am on MC, yet ask me to free a replacement and do you guys’ thinks that I am idiot? Cos the only way out is to sell guard duty which mean I have to spend money, so I won’t care about it.

Making a decision…

Something happen this morning while smsing, I do not why I say those words, but it kind of regret of what I have say. Serious speaking, I treasure all friendship especially with her. Well, I guess everything will be coming to an end? Come to think of it, I really put in a lot of effort in going after her, thinking of ways to cheer her up, how to keep her surprise, give in to her and stuff, I enjoy doing all this cos after all is doing for someone that you love. Well, I enjoy my days with her, still can remember that last time when I fetch her from work it always raining, walking with her from her work place to our eating place, those things still in my mind fresh. How I wish those days will never end, the road will never end so that can countine walking with her.

Times with her is so happy, enjoying and the way she acted some times like out of a sudden keep saying “hello” and keep asking mi to say back “hello” to her and the little little action she did when we are out together. Really miss those time…

Got so much more to say, but cant say here…well, just going to end this post with last line, this time round I really fall deep for a girl, I love you…

Feeling worry for someone, I think this is the first time I see this person so sad and down, really wish I could do something for this person, been praying for this person since just now, sometime I wish I can take all my friends trouble away from them so that they will be able to smile and laught instead of feeling sad and stuff. Realli feel for this person, really wish that this person is okie now.

Celebrated my birthday in advance with her on the 18^th of March at town. Really can’t of love it and enjoy it but at the same time feel bad because make her spend so much, 100+ dollars, heart pain for her =(

Anyway really enjoy myself at the fish & co and follow by a short shopping with me to buy computers parts! Actually was kind of surprise that I am meeting her last Friday as I thought that I not going to meet her as she smsed me quite late and was complaining that she feeling very tired and sleepy so I was like almost going to plan for my own stuff and she called saying let’s meet at 1500hr. was even surprise to saw her wearing the dress that I was commenting about too! Kind of taken part, not forgetting the photos that I took with her! Haha! But I not going to upload those pictures is for personal collection! Haha!

Come to think of it, this is the second time she helps me celebrate birthday on one to one, really quite amazing, especially last year when I do not really know her yet she came all the way down to my work place to wait for me to knock off and treat me to a birthday lunch. This year, she also came all the way down to town to meet me and this year is even better as is the first time she given me a birthday present, birthday card as well as a very nice lunch treat and a birthday cake! Really love it and enjoy it. Hopefully every y ear I will get to celebrate my birthday with her and ya. Really ai si ni le! Zhen de! Love you to the max!!! <3

How to show if you really treasure someone? I treasure you but does you? Sometimes I think that I have spend more effort to meet up with people than people meet up with me, I love spending time with people I love and stuff, but does they love spending time with me? I always there to listen and hope to see all my friends smile daily but there was once someone say that I am very busybody and was rather sad because I through this person really know me more than any others but she’s not.

How many people really know what I love to eat? Love to drink? What kind of movie I love? What I love to do? To e truthful I think less than 10 or maybe not even 1? But I do know these things from people that are around me. I really feel that people do not take me or accept me, when they sms me I must reply as soon as possible else they will not happy, but when I sms them? The reply is kind of making me sianz.

Next, so what if we have lots of achievement? Does achievement means anything? So what if we gain so many things what the point when there’s no one to share your happiness and sadness with? I start to regret of my own action and stuff, maybe I should have just say yes…

I suck….

Oh lastly, I finally got my wings, so what? Silver wing on my chest…

Have been talking to a friend about boy girl relationship, relationship I guess is sometime that everyone wants to have and wish to have. But the thing is that what is relationship really mean to all of us?

We also come to agree that when we really put in the effort to love someone at the end of the day the person does not love us, is like a very funny thing, I love you but you but you do not love me but when you do not love the person anymore the person told you that he/she love you. Well, this kind of things happens almost everywhere and anywhere now.

Well on shift yesterday many things came into my mind, have I over nice to the one that I love? Or I still do not treat her the way I should? Lots of things in my mind especially the decisions that I have make over the weeks, I hope I am doing well till.

Always loving you…