Was reading my previous blog entry. Well, there is good and bad things as usual but I think it more of bad things ba? Some how I really does not know what does she really want from me, all I want is just a simple relationship with her. That's all. How hard can it be? Well, yesterday was suppose to be a good and nice day, but I kind of screw it up as I could really cant stand it as I am kissing a gal that I love but does she feel the same?

The day before she say let's end it, but her action does not follow what's her heart say...she say end but she still want to hold my hand? So what am I to her? She say I treated her like a toy when I say I feel like a toy to her but does she really understand? I never treated her like a toy, yes sometimes I did not sms her good nite or good morning sms but that is because I either too tired at night that I sleep early if not I wake up late in the morning and need to rush. But she can always sms mi first too?! Izzit?

I really do not know what to do anymore, all she does or say is that then you go find other girls lor, if I really do not love her I would do that long ago and not wait till now. At times I really do not know what to say to my friends or family when they ask me so who is she? Are you my girlfriend? Or are you just my friend? If you are my friend why do we still kiss? To be honest, I have never love someone love till so xinku, can you feel the hurt and pain for me when I am out with you? Always heard you say can we go other place because I scared I see some people I know over there? So am I really that lousy that you do not wish others to know about me? Am I really that bad? Well, at times when I saw my friend when out with her I also do not know what to say, oh she is my girlfriend? Or she is just my friend? So who am I to you and who are you to me?

I am really disappointed with many things and yet this things happen? Haiz, sometimes I wish I could just die...